I don’t want to call this posting a crisis of faith, per say. A crisis of faith assumes that I’m taking some sort of leap away from something personally deep-rooted. Still, it feels like that a bit by virtue of the fact that I’m wondering why I have the same habit I always have when it comes to playing MMOs.
I had started my MMO’ing “career” with EverQuest, like many others. While I played the game pretty casually, and while it never really hooked me in like it had others, I could see the potential in the genre. So when games like EverQuest Online Adventures and especially Final Fantasy XI came out–games that really got me committed and into the MMO gamer mindset–I was totally in love with the game as just a game.
After about three or four years of playing Final Fantasy XI, and with some occasional dips in to City of Heroes, I felt that something was missing. I’m not sure what it was, but the grind of playing XI was beginning to feel less like play and a whole lot more like work. And no matter what City of Heroes was doing, it just felt like something was wrong.
Yes, despite how much fun this looked, it wasn’t captivating me somehow.